People always say “how time flies”. It is true, and really is. I have been a Christian for nearly 5 years and have been serving part-time in HOTL for nearly 3 years. There is no doubt that the past 3 years have been such a great blessing to me.
- To be frank, I am a person with lots of pride, and I used to be worse than what I am today. For some reasons, I have to work as a nanny and have to do some housework including cleaning. It is all part of the work. It is fairly hard to imagine such a proud person like me to go down to the level of a servant. Did I complain? Of course yes! All through these years I couldn’t even remember how many times I brought this matter to God, and asked Him to take it away! But God never did. He did not do it for a reason. In the bible, it says “in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28) I did not realize the benefit of subjecting myself to this training until one day. After watching me washing dishes and cleaning up the whole place, Priscilla came over and said to me, “Jackie, you are very efficient and effective.” Until then I just realized that in one way or the other, God has already showered upon me His blessings. And of course Pastor Gregory also shared with me that over the years, my pride is fading away. Praise God that in each and every happening in life, He is working out a good way for my ultimate benefit.
- I like to hang over with students, and within the group I always hear about such comments as “Study is so hard”, or “I hate study” so on and so forth. I felt for them because I have been studying continuously for 18 years. I used to feel that I have been studying all of my life, and I am not going to do any more. I have had enough. Anyhow not long after I started working for the church, I was asked to take the biblical course from Moore College. To make matters worse, this is a correspondence course, which means I have to do it in my own time. Of course I struggled a lot at the start. I was frustrated and I cried when I a felt lack of ability to master the subject or short of time in preparing for examinations. Yet thank God for His faithfulness. In Psalm 126:5, it states that “those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.” Endurance and perseverance will lead us through to the end. Thank God that I have just one more subject to go to complete the preliminary theological certificate. Certainly, this course has deepened my understanding of God and his teachings. This study has enabled me to write songs biblically.
- Mentioning those songs which I have written, I want to give the Lord my utmost gratitude. I have loved music since a young age, yet I did not have the opportunity to fulfill this dream until now. God knows me and He knows my desire. I did not even dream that I could use my voice and gift to serve Him in the kingdom ministry, not to mention about composing gospel songs myself. Our heavenly Father is a gracious Father. He gives us more than we ask or expect. Over the years He has touched me and given me 14 songs. Some of these have already been incorporated into 2 Gospel CDs by Keys of Worship. Now, I can compose songs and through which to testify His faithfulness and grace to many more people.
We all like to plan our way, especially at the end of the year. But, we must leave room for His plan to fit into ours. We must learn to trust in Him. Just like what Proverb 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” May His blessings be upon you according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus!
- 老实说我是一个骄傲的人，而过去的我比现在更加高傲。因为工作的需要，我也会但当保姆的工作，还要做清洁和家务。这些都是作为工作职责的一部分，而可以想象对于一个像我这样骄傲的人，是很难承受的事实。如果问我有没有抱怨，当然是有的。这么些年来，我已经无法计算曾经多少次， 我到上帝的面前，请求他挪去这个重担。但是上帝没有，从来没有。他没有这样做乃是有他的理由。圣经罗马书8章28节说，“万事互相效力，让爱神的人得益处，就是按神的旨意被招的人。”而直到有一天我才发觉这些益处。当我洗刷完碗碟，收拾好厨房后，师母望着我说，“Jackie，你收拾得很干净利索。”那一刻我才发觉原来上帝早已用各样的方式，将这些祝福交在我们的手中。牧师这些年也分享说，我的傲气也慢慢在消逝。感谢上帝，事无论巨细，他都乃是要让我们的益处，蒙他的福分。